guidetoanescape:

it’s easy enough laughing and joking with your friends, but when you’re alone it gives you time to count all your issues. you realise how screwed up your mind really is and how much your current life sucks. how much you hate some of the people around you. how much time you’ve wasted with silly things. how much you regret half of your life and that what you really want is probably never going to happen.